
Life, huh?
Do you not just hate it when you can't seem to get your life straight. And believe me, this is not one of these drunken, late night blogs where I will read it in the morning and be horrified at how personally pathetic I am, and then become even more horrified when I find 60 000 people have left comments going "hhmmm, what a cringe." No, this is more of a "I'm very very very happy, but I have no idea in what direction I'm heading in" type blog...
...and I think about this. Alot.
Maybe it's kind of stupid to worry about the future. I mean, let's face it, we have no idea. Only seven months ago, it looked like I was going to join the military. That's right! Coming back from New Zealand, I thought to myself, if I don't get into Westminster Film School, then I'll join the Royal Air Force for six years, make some money and then go to New York Film Academy. That was the plan. I mean, look below...

The plan was to be there for roughly four days...that's what we all had decided, that was in concrete. So we drove to RAF Cranwell where the worst snowfall in 20 years decided to drop most of it's bounty, and I left for my little room where I hung up my suit, shaved, combed my hair, and then went down to the Candidates Mess where I met the other fellows going for the job. They were all 25 year old University Graduates from Oxbridge and what have you, talking football and drinking pints of beer. Being 7 years younger then them, having just graduated High School and knowing absolutely nothing about football made me somewhat of an outsider, as I sat at the bar sipping coke out of a straw and commenting then and there about how the RAF was really just a back up and I would much rather make films. By 7:30, they had progressively migrated away from the sad, deluded, curly haired fellow playing with the toothpicks and so I went to bed. You must understand though, I wasn't sad or lonely, just rather bored with 'adult' conversation. I mean, it didn't even involve the odd excrement joke, the foundation for any decent conversation.

But now, now I'm here. Film school. And I'm all hairy again.
(That's Zoltan behind me, by the way. He is Hungarian and has the greatest name in the world.)

But in that sense, all worked out in the end, did it not? But now I'm faced with a new choice...where exactly do I go?
Of course, I would very much like to be a director, as I'm sure would many people. To me, being a film director is the dream, but I'm not sure whether that is the choice I should specialise in! We have to think realistically, in my case anyway (it may be different for others) but employment wise, would cinematography be a wiser choice? Writing? Maybe I could just be a cameraman? Ooooh, how this plagues my mind.
And my room is an absolute tip. Perhaps I should get that in order before I start sorting out my life.